Kinetic Forgiveness, I have come to realize IS ongoing healing in our lives that we effectively CHOOSE to experience every single day by staying in the practice.
Last week, a colleague came to me and mentioned the name of an individual who, in the past had caused emotional, financial and physical turmoil for me in my life. This person is someone who I truly believed that I had forgiven. I felt forgiveness, I experienced emotional release from the event that took place and I held no animosity toward her-FOR A TIME.
When I heard her name-and of her assumed victorious living (at what I consider to be MY expense)-it really upset me. Not specifically because she is doing well, but because she apparently had chosen to express negative feelings toward myself and the people that I work with every day. I realized in about two seconds how far from forgiving her I now had become. I felt offended.
Feeling offended is the first sign that forgiveness has slid backwards toward resentment. I had not practiced ongoing kinetic forgiveness in this area with this individual-and I realized that there is another dimension to the concept of kinetic forgiveness that goes much deeper than even I-the author-understood. Being vigilant about removing negativity toward others who have caused hurt in some way is essential and you have to be careful to practice it daily.
Satan uses resentments and memories of past hurts to steal our joy and to rob from us the peace of this moment that is given to us to enjoy and to live in the light of God's Love. He is the silent thief who tries to steal the forgiveness from your heart and spirit and does his best to plant those seeds of resentment back in our hearts and minds. I have come to understand that to experience Kinetic Forgiveness as a human being-we have to stay in prayer constantly and we have to keep a watch on what is just beneath the surface of our memory and emotional border.
And so, I have begun once again to walk with God in forgiving this individual and letting go of the hurt that had left so many tiny seeds of resentment in my heart and spirit. I want to have the freedom of joy and happiness. I want to have the healing in my mind, body and spirit that comes along with practicing Kinetic Forgiveness and I don't care how many days a week I have to be on my knees asking God to help me see her as He sees her-I will do it. I will do it until all of the old wounds have healed within me and there is not one thing that the enemy can use to bring back a spirit of resentment within me toward her.
She is a child of God just like I am. My sins are no less offensive to Him than hers are. I am no better and She is no less. We are equal. We are even in God's eyes and the thing that I have to remember and be consistent to remind myself of is this: It doesn't matter what the actions of another person brought about in my life. God is the great equalizer and He will lift me to the level that is in His will for me.
What do you think? Do you have a person in your life that you secretly are still irritated with? Maybe you are witholding forgiveness from them and you haven't yet become aware of it-like me. If you are-I pray that you will find truth and healing in Kinetic Forgiveness.
Last week, a colleague came to me and mentioned the name of an individual who, in the past had caused emotional, financial and physical turmoil for me in my life. This person is someone who I truly believed that I had forgiven. I felt forgiveness, I experienced emotional release from the event that took place and I held no animosity toward her-FOR A TIME.
When I heard her name-and of her assumed victorious living (at what I consider to be MY expense)-it really upset me. Not specifically because she is doing well, but because she apparently had chosen to express negative feelings toward myself and the people that I work with every day. I realized in about two seconds how far from forgiving her I now had become. I felt offended.
Feeling offended is the first sign that forgiveness has slid backwards toward resentment. I had not practiced ongoing kinetic forgiveness in this area with this individual-and I realized that there is another dimension to the concept of kinetic forgiveness that goes much deeper than even I-the author-understood. Being vigilant about removing negativity toward others who have caused hurt in some way is essential and you have to be careful to practice it daily.
Satan uses resentments and memories of past hurts to steal our joy and to rob from us the peace of this moment that is given to us to enjoy and to live in the light of God's Love. He is the silent thief who tries to steal the forgiveness from your heart and spirit and does his best to plant those seeds of resentment back in our hearts and minds. I have come to understand that to experience Kinetic Forgiveness as a human being-we have to stay in prayer constantly and we have to keep a watch on what is just beneath the surface of our memory and emotional border.
And so, I have begun once again to walk with God in forgiving this individual and letting go of the hurt that had left so many tiny seeds of resentment in my heart and spirit. I want to have the freedom of joy and happiness. I want to have the healing in my mind, body and spirit that comes along with practicing Kinetic Forgiveness and I don't care how many days a week I have to be on my knees asking God to help me see her as He sees her-I will do it. I will do it until all of the old wounds have healed within me and there is not one thing that the enemy can use to bring back a spirit of resentment within me toward her.
She is a child of God just like I am. My sins are no less offensive to Him than hers are. I am no better and She is no less. We are equal. We are even in God's eyes and the thing that I have to remember and be consistent to remind myself of is this: It doesn't matter what the actions of another person brought about in my life. God is the great equalizer and He will lift me to the level that is in His will for me.
What do you think? Do you have a person in your life that you secretly are still irritated with? Maybe you are witholding forgiveness from them and you haven't yet become aware of it-like me. If you are-I pray that you will find truth and healing in Kinetic Forgiveness.
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