There IS healing for your life...

All of us have experienced betrayal, hurt and loss in our lives.  It is part of existing on a planet with other individuals who are in constant battles with their egos just like we are.  Some losses and disappointments warrant a fast recovery and leave minimal damage, others cut us to the core and break our hearts, spirits and even our lives-if we cannot find forgiveness.

I suppose the greatest opposition to forgiveness is indeed the ego.  The ego wants to be lifted up and bowed down to reverentially.  If we are allowing our ego to dominate our lives, then we will have a much more difficult time forgiving others.  In order to thwart the ego, a stronger power must be the active and leading force in our lives.  I believe that when our spirit is the guiding and directional force from which we live, forgiveness is a more natural process. 

The spirit doesn’t hold onto grudges and old pain-it is built to understand and respect that we are all equal to one another and that we all face the same challenges and shortcomings in life.  The ego however, is built to dominate and to force surrender by all other opposition because its intention is to feed the flesh.  Therefore, the ego filters through the events in our lives and pays little attention to the good things others do for us-but holds on relentlessly to the injustices that take place in our lives.  The ego grows and builds upon those things, making them large enough to disrupt our emotions and cloud our decisions.  This sabotages every good thing that God has planned for us.

Honestly, if you have stumbled upon this and you are living through the ego-you are going to want strongly to close your browser.  The ego doesn’t want competition-it doesn’t even want you to know that it is in control.  It seeks to fool you by stirring up emotions that are negatively charged and then, like a child during a tantrum-seeks to get its way by reminding you of how much has been taken from you and how terribly wrong others have been to ever DARE to cause you pain.  The ego seeks to cause you to believe that revenge is right and justified.  It seeks to forward its agenda by fooling you into submission through emotions such as anger and jealousy. 

If you will call out the ego and define it for what it is and what it is doing in your life right now-it will diminish, because it cannot stand in the light of truth.  Let’s do a little exercise.  Think about a person whom you are not fond of because of something they did or said to you or about you that hurt your feelings.  Think of the worst betrayal you have ever experienced in your life.  Take a moment and reflect on that person and the feelings.  Now imagine that person happy, healthy and having everything that he or she ever dreamed of-some of which was purchased at your expense.  What do you feel?  Are you feeling irritated? Angry? Jealous?  Does some part of you feel the need to knock them off of the pedestal you are imagining them perched upon? 

That is ego.  Call it what it is-it is your ego seeking vindication for a wrong that you have suffered so that it can feed your flesh and rule your emotions.  It wants to stay in control.  Now, tell your ego (which is demanding by now that you shut your browser) to be quiet and I want you to turn to your spirit.  There is a soft energy just below your heart in the top of your belly that you can tangibly FEEL as a warmth when you seek to access your spirit and it has great healing potential for your life.   In order to access this healing part of yourself you have to put aside every negative emotion and allow your spirit to speak to you.

You see, your spirit is the part of you that God will work through to heal your life when you refuse to let the ego control you any longer.  You will begin to feel a softening toward that person that you were so angry with a few moments ago.  You will begin to remember things about that person’s life that caused THEM pain and you will begin to understand that even though it isn’t okay that you got hurt, it is important that you let go of that hurt. 

Maybe your anger and resentment are directed toward YOURSELF and your own past actions.  If that is the case, then you will be comforted in knowing that all of those old things have been washed away and that you are a new creation.  None of the imagined damage and pain are left from those old destructive patterns, that is unless you are holding onto them.  Softness in the spirit seeks to forgive your past indiscretions and heal those old wounds by helping you to embrace forgiveness of yourself and a gentle understanding that who and where you were then is an entirely different person and place than who and where you are now.

Surrendering our pain to God is a transformational action that reaps healing and growth in our lives and helps us to forgive EFFECTIVELY.  Putting all of these things that have broken us down in the palm of the hand of the almighty gives us freedom from reliving the pain through old emotional wounds as time goes on.  If we choose to keep even a fragment of the pain we have been through, we are keeping that seed of discouragement, abandonment and failure in the fertile soil of our lives and it will grow.  We don’t always see the current circumstances in our lives as having anything to do with any grudges or unforgiveness we are harboring, but the truth is that the roots of resentment grow deep and they choke out every good seed that could spring forth an abundance of good things in our lives.

Ultimately it is our choice whether or not we hold onto pain.  God is asking us to give that to Him.  He wants to carry our burdens and help us to  find fulfillment and joy in our lives.  God never created one individual that he did not have a dream and a purpose for.  What was he purposing when he formed you in your mother’s womb?  I can tell you this, whatever He imagined for you in that moment of your creation is greater and more beautiful than anything you could ever dream for yourself.  He can help you realize that purpose in your life, but only if you are willing to trust Him and surrender to Him your painful past.  He is the judge and all things will be made right in HIS timing. 

We spend too much of OUR time making ourselves the focal point of every disruption in life.  We never stop to think that most of the time when we are hurt by someone’s actions, it isn’t deliberate.  We all make the best decisions we can with the information we have available in every set of circumstances.  It is the emotional storms that cause low visibility that lead us to hurt ourselves and others by our choices.  So many times in life we are simply caught in the crossfire of someone else’s battle with their own ego-or are engaged in a battle with our own.  Seeing events in the light of this truth is healing in and of itself.

Aren’t you tired of feeling angry, guilty, sad and lost?  There is hope and help and love that far outweighs the circumstances in your life and it is available now.  God loves you dearly.  You are the apple of his eye and he is waiting and anticipating the day when you will turn away from your pain and throw yourself into his arms so he can help you.  Is today that day?

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What I Learned from A Bee....

My story of the day…..

THE BEE

I got up this morning and piddled around the house doing Sunday morning things for a little while before realizing that I would need to go to the store.  I drove into town and picked up all of the things on my list and headed back home.  It was a beautiful day and the sun was shining brilliantly with a warm breeze blowing so I rolled my window down.  About two thirds of the way home I felt a distinct thud against my cheekbone as a yellow jacket was blown into the truck.  I looked in the side view mirror of the truck and leaned out and could see him hanging onto my hair with all of his little legs.  Hello adrenaline.  I couldn’t very well stop the truck and beat my head on the steering wheel until the bee was  either freed or killed, so I continued driving-keeping a watch on him still hanging in my hair.  I tried fluffing my hair into the wind by hanging my head partially out of the window as I speeded up-but that only twisted my hair and the bee became lost in the tangles.  Crap! Now what?  All of the way home I imagined that this bee was slowly inching his way upwards along that lock of hair and that he was going to sting me.  Nonetheless, I did not panic, I just worried and drove quickly with my head hanging out the window.  I’m sure that was quite a sight for all of the cars I was meeting on that road.  Finally, the road narrowed into the long country stretch that would lead me home.  I had to slow down because it is mountainous and winding.  But I didn’t like that.  I kept peering at my hair in the reflection of my side view mirror trying to catch a glimpse of that stupid bee that I was sure was very angry by now, and probably just coming to after his impact with the side of my face earlier.  I couldn’t see him, but I could see the tangle where I imagined that he was caught up.  After a few tense minutes I made it home and careened down my driveway.  I slammed on the brakes and threw the truck in first gear and literally leapt out the door.  I did a fervent speed walk from the driveway into the house with my head dangling to the left to try to keep the bee that I was convinced was planning to sting me from getting further toward my face.  I yelled for help and help came quickly to assist in de-beeing my long hair.  However; there was no bee found.  I know he WAS in there when I first looked out the window into the side view mirror, but apparently one of the gusts of wind had sucked him out the window without me knowing.  I brushed my hair like a madwoman, thinking that I was going to dislodge this little kamikaze with malicious intent from my tangled locks, but after brushing  revealed no bee-I just had to kind of laugh at myself a little bit.

And then, God spoke to me and he said you know how you got all upset over that bee and you were sure it would sting you even when you couldn’t see it, you just KNEW it was going to somehow get you?  Well, the bee and the danger was gone-taken care of but you were still reacting to that fear and the belief that you were in danger.  I began to see that it’s like that with other dangers in our lives, too.  We see a perceived danger and we are immediately convinced that it’s got us by the leg-when, in fact it could have already been taken care of.  I guess God was trying to teach me to relax a little and stop reacting so much to my perception of danger and trust him to get the bee out of my hair, so to speak.  I don’t know if this helps anybody else or not, but the next time a large yellow jacket is sucked into your vehicle and becomes lodged in your hair, I hope you will think about this lesson in fear.  I reacted all the way home to this bee in my hair, when obviously he had been sucked back out the window a long time before I got to the driveway.  This made me realize that we also continue reacting in fear based ways to things that have already been resolved in our lives-keeping that adrenaline and all of those stress hormones pumping through our bloodstream.  This was a lesson to me to trust God with those dangers that I fear but can’t see so that I can have the peace that He intended for me.  I hope you will enjoy the peace that He has intended for you, as well.  May God Bless You & Keep You In All Ways.

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From Kinetic Forgiveness by Betty J. Humphrey

We are living in the age of discovery, not only of our ancient ancestry, but of inborn wisdom, long forgotten.Today, in this moment knowledge is flowing into our creative consciousness, allowing us to see past what is tangible.We are born to create and manifest.The secret energies that our creator buried within the constructs of our minds is now coming into the light.It is now time to awaken to the wisdom that is before us.
This kinetic force of wisdom is seeking to teach us how to use those most intimate parts of ourselves which are created in the image of God in order to create within ourselves what is good, what is right, what is eternal.We are called into creation so that we may create in our own hearts and lives what is Luminescent and Radiant Love.We are being called out of an age of dormant resources into the Dawning of New Enlightenment.God is opening our eyes to what has been long hidden from us.It is now our responsibility to reach out and take hold of that knowledge and to follow it.Happiness is alive. Forgiveness is alive.Peace is alive.All of these energies are sentient and kinetic.

What is Kinetic Forgiveness™
Kinetic Forgiveness™ is a cultivated state of awareness that is useful in the releasement of negative patterns of behavior and thought. By tracing current patterns backwards to the point of origin and examining the underlying stagnation of energy, the block can be successfully removed. This technique will allow one to heal continually in an ongoing basis. It will assist in removal of negative mindsets that have evolved into destructive patterns which often derail relationships, damage self-esteem and cost valuable opportunities.
The Health of the Mind and Spirit are played out on the canvas of everyday life. Negative mindsets can undermine and destroy relationships, opportunities and the health of the body. Without the Body, the Spirit has no home. Use this powerful teaching to move forward in YOUR LIFE today! Kinetic Forgiveness™
This Book will help you learn how to Cultivate Peace in your life. And together, peace and forgiveness create health.
What is Peace anyway? I mean, we all (collectively as human beings) generally agree that out of all of the things we can seek to possess in this world, peace stands out at the forefront of all desires. But can we define it? You see, I believe that if we go a little deeper we will find that the definition of Peace is illusive when we try to fit it into the conceptual mold that we have been taught to view it in.
Peace isn't the absence of conflict. Just like the absence of hatred doesn't indicate love--neither does the absence of conflict indicate peace. Peace is sentient and energetic. It has its own intrinsic gifts when we learn to allow it to expand and unfold within us.
Until we learn to embrace what peace really is, we will never be fully able to embrace the energies it carries with it-and the total transformation that it creates within our lives. Forgiveness and Peace are two intelligent energies that work together in a synergistic way to connect us to the wellspring of positive manifestation.

I believe that the first step to embracing the true embodiment of peace within our lives is to refrain from playing the labels game. We stop labeling good, bad, ugly-etc. We begin to allow information to FLOW instead of damming it up by creating strong negative emotional connections to it. The negative emotional connections that are established through judgment only serve to act as a funnel that directs that negative information AND it's negative emotional counterparts directly into our lives & our bodies where it creates discord, unhappiness and disease.

Letting Go In The Storm

The storms of life surely come and some of them tear through our lives like tornadoes, uprooting everything in their path.  God does not allow these things to come upon us in order to beat us down or invoke submission.  He allows us to experience the storms because they build our faith and our reliance upon Him. 

Earlier this week I woke up to a morning filled with terrifying heart palpitations and a racing heartbeat which sent me off to the ER.  They told me that I was suffering with something called atrial fibrillation.  After many blood tests, a chest x-ray and a catscan of my lungs I was given one final dose of the medication which was intended to fix my situation.  It did not work.  The doctor came into the room and smiled at me and said "you know what this means, right?"  "I said yes, you have to shock me."  A flood of nurses and medical students came rushing into the room to watch the procedure.  I was so afraid.  The nurse had told me that it was going to be painful and would feel like I'd been kicked in the chest by a mule.  They gave me a narcotic pain reliever in my IV and prepared me for the shock.  Everything moved in slow motion as I closed my eyes and heard the doctor say "clear".  Immediately I heard a gunshot go off in my head and my body was jerked upward.  My jaw slammed shut with dynamic force, so hard I was sure that it had broken my teeth.  In another second, it was over and my body was released from the electric shock and I relaxed back onto the bed.  When I looked up, I saw everyone looking at my monitor.  Praise God, the treatment had worked! My irregular heartbeat had become regular and had slowed to a normal pace.  I immediately felt better.  They ran another EKG scan and the doctor came in and said that it was completely normal and he was going to release me to go home.  By this time, my sister and brother were there along with my daughter and her dad, who had taken me to the ER and had been with me the entire time. 

When I think about sitting quietly through the storm I realize that I was doing just that on that day.  I was in the midst of a situation that was terrifying, painful and uncertain.  I prayed as I endured each moment and each level of fear that God would give me the strength to withstand it and that He would heal me.  And He did!  Even though I was afraid I did not feel alone, which is what I have come to understand has been the same through every traumatic event I have experienced in my life.  I have learned that He is always there no matter how terrible the storm feels.  I have also learned that storms pass.  What seems like forever in the moment really isn't forever at all.  I am very grateful that He was there to comfort me in those moments of fear and panic.  I know that He has been there through all of the storms that I have weathered in my life during seasons of loss and upheaval, as well as joy and growth.

I know that it's difficult to become still in the storm, but God's promises tell us that if we can do that and use our faith in Him and allow that faith to grow and to reach out toward Him, no matter what our storm is tossing around above our heads or how much debris is flying....He will bring us through to the end of the storm and a sunny day again.  Thank you for reading & may God bless you in all ways.